A few times during my preparations for this amazing walk I have had someone tell me that what I plan to do is so big, as to be ridiculously unrealistic.
Just today I was told that I wasn’t doing a good job of branding myself due to my last name, among other things. Apparently this person felt my last name had the potential to be misunderstood as sexual and that was a major fault. She suggested, among many other criticisms that I change my name.
As I listened to this lady find fault with a lot of things in my campaign I was struck by the merciless criticism, incredible negativity and suspected that this is how she speaks to herself. My journey was labeled “unrealistic” based on relatively small issues, that to her seemed insurmountable obstacles.
When I decided to embark on this adventure I did so because in all honesty, life the last 3-4 years have been extremely hard. I have felt beaten down and overwhelmed many times over. I know the feeling of not being able to do any of the things I want to do with my life. The feeling that anything worth while just isn’t possible, that I will never “make it”, and that life is just too difficult. I have focused on the things I am unable to do until life simply seemed too difficult. I have had ideas, and then convinced myself that it is too difficult and given up.
I stopped believing in myself and started to see the world as hostile. My faith in God challenged and stretched.
This walk is about weight loss, but it is so much more than that. It is my stake in the ground, my decision that I am done believing in a hostile world. It is my decision to have faith, show faith and allow myself a big dream. It is my decision to look for opportunities and connections with others. To see the generosity and goodness, rather than the harshness.
Sure, I am human. There are times when I call my friend in tears, doubting myself, questioning myself, but this time my decision is “I WILL NOT GIVE UP”. This time I am not going to allow myself to lose faith, and that will be all the difference!
So for those of you who would like a big dose of positive thinking, big dreams and even bigger actions, I am so grateful for your support.
And, if you are going to respond to what I am doing with negativity and criticism, expect me to draw away from it. I do not have time or energy to allow myself to get twirled in to that mindset.